Thursday, June 30, 2011

one more night....

I have one more night of getting up at 4 am... My darling daughter has stayed up till 4 am so I can get some extra sleep... she sleeps till 2 pm...

Tomorrow Molly gets the staples out...For the last 3 days she has been great.. sleeping for both Kim and I.. I think when the pain meds stopped she was sorta having a withdrawl and she was so jumpy and couldn't sleep....now that it is out of her system she has been great..We have to still watch her but not like she was that one day...

There are things I have learned about myself...

I fall asleep reading,
I fall asleep crocheting,
I fall asleep making list,
I fall asleep looking through mags..
I fall asleep just sitting...
I fall asleep watching TV...
I fall alseep writing my blog..
I fall asleep reading blogs at 4 am...not that they are boring...it's that I am doing to much sitting..

I miss sleeping the whole night with hubby...
I miss gardening...
I miss just going out and doing what I want...

I found out I can't wait to do...

I can't wait to weed,
I can't wait to mow,
I can't wait to walk out of the room without watching Molly
I can't wait to sleep the whole night with hubby
I cna't wait to sit in my garden
I can't wait to go to church,
I can't wait to go to the library..
I can't wait to just drive somewhere...

I have learned that I have watched more TV in the last 2 weeks than I have done in a life time... I have never watched that much TV... I have watched "The Talk" and are these ladies hilarious...they have made me laugh out loud...

I have learned with I do some exercises that my dogs get hyper and than I get nothing accomplished..Because they think it is play time..

I learned yesterday when I went to the post office to mail some bills after Kim woke up that I found going to that post office that it was exhilarating to go...

I learned walking out to the mail box that the sunshine felt so great....

Yes I have had tons of time to think about all this stuff... very boring life at this moment...

Would I do it again you betcha I would.. I have alaways loved our animals...they are part of our family....

Have a great day and may it be filled with many blessings...

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Tuesday

Friday can't come quick enough for me...Molly is getting her sutures out.. I can't wait... She is doing so much better but she wants to get to them so bad...

When Molly is sleeping I can get some things done...Watered my container veggies out front today...I have peas, carrots and radishes and onions... they all look good..Not sure how the peas will do as I planted them late..And we are in for some real hot weather in the next few days...I even took some time to curl my hair... and feed the birds... it's nice to do those things when I haven't been able to leave her...I am giving her some space and myself....she has been good because I constantly say to her I am watching her... and she knows I mean every word of it...learned new tricks with her...

I have the Air off today and it is so pretty outside..Sophia my other cat was flying from window to window...she was a hoot this morning...

I finally got everything sorted from what we took out of the entertainment center...It sure held more than I thought... I need to vaccuum so bad and I will do it later today after Kim wakes up...... Also maybe we can get the coffee table back...I have it on it's side because Molly would go under it and we couldn't get to her...So I decided the coffee table is going on it's side...We are currently using the ottoman with my dough board on top of that to place glasses on... How are animals rule!!

We really have nothing planned for this weekend...it is suppose to be a hot one...I would like to get out to my garden and weed in the early morning so I can get a handle on the weeds....

Told Russ I would love to sit on the deck and watch other peoples fire works they set off and have a glass of Sangria to sip... I haven't had it in years... I just don't want to fight the crowds this 4th of July.....I would love to fix some treats to eat and grill and just enjoy the day...Russ feels the same as I do...

That is it for now....Haven't worked on anything and have written down a list of the things I want to make and complete...

You have a great week ahead.... May your day be filled with many Blessings...

Sunday, June 26, 2011

a beautiful sunday morning...




Good Morning... I hope your weekend is going great...

It has been a real nice weekend...better than last week.. Kim and I are getting use to these shifts we are doing...I am getting some sleep...Tomorrow I will make an appointment to get Molly's sutures out this week...it will be back to normal then...

Yesterday I picked up Dan.. It was so nice to get out of the house... Dan did a load of wash and he mowed the front and back yard and it looks so nice...Russ weeded the back fence line. I wss talking with Dan and told him our gas grill is going...I can't even turn the knobs to turn it off and on...so he took a look at it and was able to fix it temporary... He said they were going... I am going to turn the grill in to a charcoal grill for right now...need to put some money away for a new one.. I want to get a new one by the fall...I like to have a gas grill for winter...Just in case we lose power..I will have something to cook with... so a grill is on the agenda...

After Dan fixed the grill we grilled burgers for lunch...They tasted so good...

Kimberly woke up around 2 and Russ and I went food shopping... This past week I have been plannning a menu.. going through what I have and then planning more meals with a certain amount of money and keeping our menu healthy at the same time...... With Molly's surgery and then buying the flat screen TV it put a big dent in the budget... so now I want to recoop what we spent...especially for the TV...I do like the TV very much but it was not a necessity....it was a purchase we made without really thinking about it...we were making excuses about our 25th anniversary and how are plans were shot because of the surgery...we were feeling sorry for ourselves because we had planned it so differently....That's why I don't plan or do committments because nothing ever works out... so on the spur of the moment we bought the TV...we did NOT buy it on credit...So I wanted to re-coop that money we paid for the TV in a few weeks time.....


I have to say I made a menu plan for 3 weeks...looked through the freezer and then wrote down what I had...It was really nice... I checked out a book the other day at the library and it was African American cooking... I wrote down a few recipes I know I will make..alot of the recipes are alot like southern cooking...I love different ethic recipes... I have had the opportunity in the past to learn different cultures from cuban to korean foods..I make a great korean fried rice that a friend who was korean taught me.. I make it when we have ribs... With being tired from not getting sleep we were getting fast food and wasting more money... so for the next 3 weeks there won't be any eating out... Yesterday when I grilled I grilled more burgers than what we needed....I cooked them for Kim so when I make something she doesn't like, she can pull the burger from the freezer and heat it up.. I have set aside $40 a week for buying basics or fresh fruit... I have everything I need for the next 3 weeks... Also we will be going back to eating serving sizes... I will be making menu plans for now on so I won't be running to the store every other day because I forgot something and then some how I get other things into the basket and before you know it I have A $100 worth of stuff that we don't really need because I didn't plan and have self control....So each week with my menu plan we are going to have some new ethnic dinner..

Next week we are getting Kim's car looked out..She needs a new tire and then her emergency brake adjusted or new brakes.... We need to get her car in tip top shape because she goes back to college...Kim going back to college is coming upon us pretty quickly and then we will be empty nesters again..

I hear my darling husband up....

Have a great day...

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Saturday morning and a question......

Good morning... Things are looking good around our house...

We accepted the news of Molly and the funny thing yesterday and this morning she is spunky and back to her old self...She is feeling better... She is a creature of habit and doesn't like her routine messed with at all...For the last week we tried feeding her where she was laying... She kept insisting and walking back to where her food has always been...I have to keep it up off the floor because the dogs...So we pushed a chair next to where her food is and she hops up on the chair and then hops up to where the food is...She is a happy camper and it doesn't seem to bother her at all..

And the cute thing is our Golden Retriever lays right by Molly where ever she is...He is protecting his buddy...Animals are such a wonderful thing to watch and their habits...protecting their own family...what job animals bring to our lives...

Last evening for the first time in a week I was able to walk around and look at my garden...it was great to see and not so great to see the evil weeds...I have a lot of weeding to do... To my dismay I came across white powerdery mildew on my zucchinis...and starting to spread to my cucumbers.. :( I read on the internet to spray them will milk and water...So I may do that... My tomatoes they are covered with tomatoes...it was good to see...I need to tie them up to the post...All my containers that have my veggies are doing fantastic...It is because I made sure I had good drainage for them....so all the rain has been great...The pumpkins that I planted are doing great...Strawberries are doing well but I think some bunnies are eating them...I have 3 bunnies out front at this moment...they are cute but can do some havoc to my garden....

This morning I will be picking up Dan..Russ will be cat sitting while I go pick him up...Dan needs to do laundry and he will cut the lawn while laundry is being done...Then I will take him to work and then go back and pick him up after his two shifts are done to take his laundry back and then take him home...It will be a busy day and the grass will be cut and I can get out of the house for a while picking him up and taking him home...

At some point I need to get some grocery shopping done....Probably this afternoon when Kim wakes up...

Now for my question..... We got our flat screen TV...Took down the entertainment center.. I love the TV... BUT this TV some how is rearranging my home... I mean the whole home!!! because when you move soemthing to another spot then you have to move the stuff that was in the spot somewhere else... and it goes on and on....Now with the TV.... the wall is blank above it..NOTHING at all....the wall looks huge!!! I am afraid if I start putting things on the wall that it will look very cluttered.... but I am so use to clutter and I have been decluttering recently except my house is in shambles with everything in piles that were in the entertainment center...Do I put things on the wall or leave it plain looking...such a decision....Oh and come Christmas....ha...I have nothign to set my snowmen on...they use to go on top of the entertainment center....I am pretty excited to try exciting new decorating this christmas instead of the same ol'e traditional stuff...

With the old enterainment center Russ is going to build shelves with it...see I had a lt full books in the entertainment center...we have a ledge down in the basement with a window on that wall with the ledge...Russ is going to make book shelves surrounding the window...we have always wanted to do that...it won't cost us anything because now have the wood to do it now...see how the TV is making us re-do everything!!!It's a good problem to have to me...

I am just stuck with the wall that the new TV is on now...

I hope your having a great weekend....

Thursday, June 23, 2011

News on Molly

I know I said I was taking some time off...but...

The Vet called me and gave me the very bad news on Molly...Even tho I was prepared it was still a shock... The shock is that the tumor she has is a very aggressive cancer very rare in cats....He said that it probably is in other parts of the body and I told him it is... He asked why did I think so and I said her bowel movements are yellow... He goes that I was probably correct.. He told me to feed her some dark food and see how it is in a couple of days...

What I don't get is this cat is not an outdoor cat..None of my cats are outdoor cats... I am beginning to think the vaccinations they give for Leukemia is causing other forms of cancer... One vet in town is not giving the leukemia shots to cats that live in door... Could it be the food we feed our animals?? All the cats I have had have died from cancer even tho they had the leukimia shots..The first vet told me that the old leukemia shots they use to do they have found out that it caused tumors in the spot they gave the shots..So they changed the vaccination...so that will take years to find if it works or not....I don't know what to think except we will be changing our foods that we give to our pets.. I know I am reaching for something but I am tired of my cats dieing of cancer and I want to know why?? The animals we had growing up lived long lives... It's just frustrating at the moment...You pay for all this prevention vaccinations for your animals and the end results is cancer...not fair at all....just not fair...

Kim and I had talked about it that if was cancer we were going to let Molly the live the rest of her days happly and the minute she is in pain we will have her put down... We will not let her suffer....

time out...

Good morning...I hope your week is going great....

I will not be blogging till my world goes back to normal....Right now it is all about Molly.... and to me it is pointless trying to write something that is happening in my life when all I do is watch Molly....

I haven't even been out to my garden...I am sure it is full of weeds...UGH...And we are having beautiful weather where I could weed but all I can do is watch Molly...

By the way Molly is doing good except she has this temper that I never knew she had...Goodness... This morning she wanted to get to her incision so bad and I blocked her head from getting near it and man oh man did she hiss and growl and try to bite my hand off... I did not have nice words for her at 3 am in the morning...She was a couple hours past her pain meds and I gave it to her with no problems because she knew she should not have done what she did... Poor thing...But she wanted to knaw at that those staples....If she tries now all I have to do is say NO MOLLY and she stops... So that is my life right now always saying NO MOLLY....

Have a great day...

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

loved doing dishes...

It's early again...Kim and I switch at 3 am this morning...Kim is a night owl and usually doesn't go to bed till 2 or 3 anyway so this is easy for her...NOT ME!!!
I have been drinking pop to wake up and stay alert... Not alot but I have needed it..Once this whole thing is over I will go off again..

I would like to thank everyone for the annivesary wishes... I do have to explain something..About the used part.. 36 years ago having a baby at age 16 was not well accepted... my parents and I were good after everything settled down.... They were wonderful parents...Sometimes words stick...I did forgive them in my heart..

Well the title of loved doing the dishes.. Being stuck in the exercise room for a few days was not something I want to do again....There are so many recipes I can write down...so much TV I can watch...and there is nothing to watch at 3 am except for info commercials... so yesterday I switchd with Kim and as I sat there feeling sorry for myself and upset about not being with Russ was getting to me...He took 4 days off so we could do things... I was having a pity party yesterday morning at 3 am. I decided it was time to let Molly out of the room...We were there because of the drainage tubes, they were out and it was time to let her find a spot to settle down in the living room...We wanted the other animals to be around...so it took a few minutes and she found her spot and the dogs did there sniffing and Molly let them know to leave her alone...

While Molly slept I got to do the dishes...Emptying the dish washer is something I do not like to do... I don't know why but I don't like doing it..maybe because they will just get dirty again...like making your bed your only going to get back in bed to mess it up... Well yesterday I so thorughly enjoyed doing the dishes...I cleaned up the kitchen... Russ did do a great job in keeping it pretty clean..

Russ went out and got Panera bagels... He had been runnign to McDees for breakfast for us.. So a bagel tasted wonderful...

After Molly was settled and Kim went to bed for the morning Russ and I sat side by side watching Molly and watching TV...I was thrilled to be with Russ and not stuck in the room... We were going to go to Texas Roadhouse for some steak for dinner but decided not to...We just didn't want to go....Russ didn't want me cooking...So we got Arby's for us and Kim... Russ and Kim and I watched America's Got Talent and then Voice... It was a nice evening for me...I was stuck in the room....

We still have to watch Molly...She can't be alone because she will try and get her staples out...so we have 9 more days of this...but we aren't closed up in a room.. I am free...I can cook and can do other things in the living room...

The funny thing is the TV will be coming soon and I will be emptying the entertainment center... then we have to move the thing and take it apart.. We have a few ideas of what we can do with it... Of course the center is very very heavy...it's that stupid partical board stuff.. I love pure wood stuff better... Of course we have to figure out what the TV will go on.. So we decided to use the long table that Russ made me to go in front of the bannister for the TV to sit on in the mean time till we decide what want.. Of course we were joking when we painted the living room and we moved the entertainment center if the paint job is good or not behind it..we will soon find out... It is going to change the look of our living room..

I'm excited about doing the dishes once again today.. Ha...Thought I would never say that... I can walk around and do things...not stuck in a small area...

Have a wonderful day...

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

It's our 25th...

It's our 25th anniversary today and our cat is ruling the day today.. I was pretty down about it that I had to get up at 3 am to relieve Kimberly...Yes we still have to watch Molly like a hawk...But I won't be stuck in the room today...The drainage tubes are out and we are going to let her oome out in the living room to roam and find a comfy place to sleep...at least I will be able to be out in the living room with Russ..Tonight we are going out to eat...Kim will keep watch with Molly....We are going to Texas Roadhouse...


Twenty Five years has gone by fast...I dont remember ever not being married to Russ..

I thought I would write how I met Russ...

I had my son when I was 17 years old.. I was living with my parents at the time...I was working at UPS...A friend who lived down the street and her name is Marlene.. Marlene was Russ's secretary... Marlene loved match making couples.. I had been a single mom for 11 years...Didn't believe I would ever meet someone.. My parents told me that I would never meet someone who wanted a used person...back 36 years ago they did believe that...I was really beginning to think I would ever meet someone who wanted a single mom...

Marlene wanted me to meet Russ and I really didn't want to...There company was having a charter fishing boat trip and they could invite friends. She talked me into going..My parents at the time did not like me going out..It was very difficult because my mom would only watch Dan if I was working or going to school...I understood that...If I wanted to go out I had to have a babysitter but the babysitter could not come to the house...Made it very difficult to go out so I never did... So I told mom I had to go in to work and catch up on auditing packages...I had to go in occassionally to catch up... So she had no clue I was going to meet Russ.. Of course I look back and see how stupid I was for going out on boat in the ocean and my parents not knowing anything..What happened if the boat sand and I was lost at sea...When your young you don't think out things like that..

I met Marlene at the dock and she introduced Russ to me..he didn't say much to me at all and I had the twinge of feelings my parents were right about me being a used person..yes those words stuck to me...Still to this day those words stick to me..Anyways we got on the boat and headed to sea..Oh my gosh it was so rough....I was scared to death..Marlene was sea sick..I waa doing okay..Russ caught the one and only fish...I was hanging on for dear life and wssn't fishing...Marlene was sick as all...I was still fine UNTIL this lady came and stood by me and threw up and the wind made it go in front of me into the sea....that did me in...I had to go and sit down...The captain decided it was to rough and turned back in... Everyone was so happy..

After gettign on dry land we head to Marlenes.. She lived down the street from me and had a pool... So I went home to change into my swimming suit and told my son Dan that I was at Marlenes... We lived on a lake so Dan rowed his boat down to Marlenes to swim and meet Russ...The one thing I did with Russ is I was going to have everything laid out... Of who I was...my son and all...I wasn't to keep anything hidden... I was a used package deal...Seriously I did this... I didn't want to waste my time dating someone who would be shocked that I had child...Russ met Dan and Dan and I swam...Russ wasn't saying much...I felt there was no connection between Russ and I and I wasn't going to waste anymore time..So Dan and I rowed home..

A couple of hours later I was out front with Dan and I was washing my car and Russ drove by and I waved and he did NOT wave back... So I figured okay that was a waste of my time..After 25 years of marriage if I was standing on the side of the street Russ would not see me....He drives like he has blinders on like a horse..So he never saw me wave in front of my home.By the way after 25 years of marriage I do the driving because I do not like his driving..

Well Marlene asked me what I thought and I said he was not interested...She asked him the same thing..and he said he same thing that I was not interested....A few days later I called her at work and she talked to me for a few moments and she put me through to Russ...I was mad at her...Well she had talked to him about me and said I thought he was great and tht I was interested in him...She told me the same thing that he thought I was great and he was interested in going out.. So when she put me through to Russ, he asked me out.. Our first date was June 21st, 1985

I am going to go back before I met Russ because when ever I met a man or when I went to go out with them I would soon find out they were married, and I would not go out or if I found out I would end it... Again I was a single mom and back them they thought I would be a easy target..."used' ..So I told Marlene that if I go out for now on I want to check the mans closets out to make sure there weren't any women's clothes in the closet...I had told her that months before I met Russ..I had totally forgotten I had told her..

Our first date he took me out to eat at Vinnie's Resturant on University Ave in Ft.Lauderdale Florida...I don't know if it is still there anymore or not...I hadn't been out to this nice of resturant before.. the thing that kept going through my mine was it had cloth tableclothe..I felt special... I remember having scallops...Anyways we were going to go to a movie... But he said he wanted to show me where he lived...I said okay... Thinking what is he up to.. So he takes me into his house...I kept thinking I do not know this guy...So he goes I want to show you something the bedroom...I really didn't want to go in...but he insisted he wasn't going to do anything he just wanted to show me something...So I went into his bedroom and he went to the closet... He opened the door and I said what?? He goes no women's clothes...I about died...Marlene had told him... I didn't remember I had told her that till Russ said it.. then he lead me to the second bedroom and showed me the other closet... Then he said okay lets go to the movies...

I knew right then and there that Russ was special... Were were married a year later oh June 21at 1986.... 25 years later on a special wedding anniversary I sit alone in a room with a cat...my husband alone in bed...UGH.... He understands and this is why I love Russ...He is the most understanding lover, husband, friend...

We will be going out to dinner....and I can't wait...Love you honey...

Monday, June 20, 2011

A nice Fathers Day

Good morning,

Can't wait till 2:30 this afternoon to get the drainage tubs removed from Molly... I don't how much longer I can take with these shifts.... Kim and I are exhausted...

Holly (Grermy) and Sophia (cat) do not understand why I am in the room...Sophis cries and cries at the door...they are all upset... poor things...

Father's Day was a nice one...I feel I haven't seen my hubby for a while...Last night I was able to be with him in the living room...

Kim took over when she got up and I fixed a nice breakfast for lunch...Tim and Jessie came for breakfast....Then I pulled Tim aside and asked him to take Russ to a movie... I don't like some of the movies Russ likes...So Tim and Russ and Kim went out to a movie with their dad...I stayed back...So did my daughter in law... I told her she did not have to stay and she said she wanted to.. So she sat in the room with me and kept watch over Molly... We talked and talked and talked...It was so good...She is a wonderful daughter in law..The time flew by... I couldn't believe they were back and they were gone for 2 hours..I was so glad that Russ was able to get out on Father's day with his kids...Dave and Dan were working...

Dave came by after work and he gave us some money for our anniversary and to his father for father's day... We told him no but he wanted to...Russ has wanted a flat screen TV for some time. I had been putting alittle aside.. And Dave was talking to us about TV's so Dave and Russ went looking for a TV..They came home empty handed. They knew that we could get better prices on the internet.. So we orderd a TV and it will be here by this weekend...We decided to buy it for our 25th anniversary...I am excited...

Soooooooo now we have to re-do the living room...We will be spending our anniversary taking down all the books in the entertainment center and all the other stuff that is in the entertainment center.. Then we have to get rid of the center...We don't have a stand for the TV.. Russ is goign to see if he can make a stand out of the old entertainment center..It will be a temporary thing...of course our temp stuff ends up for a life time...We just don't want to throw out something that is still good...so we will re-design it and make it into a TV stand or faux fire place..

Well thats it for now..Have a great day...

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Sunday Morning....

Good morning...

Happy Father's Day to my wonderful Husband...And Happy Birthday to my brother...

Kim and I are taking shifts with Molly. It is hard and I am so glad Kim is here helping.. I would not have been able to do this with out her.. Molly is Kim's cat and she is doing wonderful in helping..Kim is scared that Molly will take out the drains... Thank the Good Lord that they come out tomorrow and I think it will be smooth sailing after that...and we can get a good nights sleep...

The room that Molly is in is the exerise room...no comfy chair ....We have quilts on the floor...Not my mothers...the ones I bought for $1 and up to $10...never realized how hard the floor was...UGh...So yesterday my dear sweet hubby went out and bought a beach chair...I wanted it low to the ground because Molly wants to be real close to you and she wants you touching her at all times... So Russ went out and bought one...He will go out and get a second one...Because Molly decided the one Russ bought was hers... As this moment I am sitting on the hard floor and she is on the chair on a nice comfy pillow...sound a sleep...

When I went to change shifts with Kim, I walked into the room and she was on the floor and Molly on the chair.... I said whats this?? She goes Molly peed on one of the quilts.. I was thrilled that she peed because she had not gone since the surgery... Kim said when she got up out of the chair and took the quilt to put in the bathtub she said she came back and Molly was curled up on the chair...

Molly is getting her way with everything!!!spoiled rotten cat!!!

Kim and I have come to the decision and I wanted Kim to have a say in the care of Molly that if Molly has another tumor which is very likely and the dcctor said probably lungs that we will not put Molly through this again... We can tell it has taken a toll on Molly...We will let her live her days happy and no more surgeries and if she is suffering we will not have her suffer anymore...Now we have to get through the next 10 days...

And the hard part about all this is the darn cat carrier!!!ugh!! hates the thing...I will be searching for a better one and get one this afternoon or tomorrow morning...One that is easy to get her in...

Today's plan for Father's Day is going to be so different than others as one person will be in with Molly...Molly only wants Kim and I...doesn't like anyone else... Right now Kim is sleeping... she went to bed at 2 am....she will relieve me at 9 or 10.... Tim and Jessie are coming around 11am...I will be fixing a big brunch breakfast for Russ and the kids...bacon, eggs, pancakes.. that is what Russ wanted.. I will eat in here while the kids eat with there fathers.. I am going to ask Tim to take his father out to the movies...I will stay back... I am not a fan of movies so it is not going to affect me...Russ and his kids loves movies...Then later kim will relieve me for a while...So it is going to be a different father's day...But the main thing is I want the kids spending time with their father... so we are going to do the best we can...

I will tell you I miss sleeping a full night with my hubby....

On Tuesday which is our 25th anniversary we were going to do a few things but that will be nixed... We will wait and see how Molly does after the drainage tubes come out......She may be left along for a bit and checked on...

I don't have an update on my friend Louann.... Please continue to pray for her..

Brenda my daughter in laws mother is handling things okay....

Enjoy your Father's Day...

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Molly

Good morning.. I hope your having a wonderful weekend...

We took in Molly for her surgery..she is a fiesty cat let me tell you...Even the Vet and all the techs said man oh man Molly doesn't like them... When we were talking to the Vet about Molly the techs were putting her in the cat carrier and let me tell you Kim and Jessie and I all looked at the Vet and asked if that was Molly and he goes I think I need to check that out...Boy oh Boy did she let them have it with screaming... Never in my life have I heard that much screaming from a cat..She was NOT a hapy camper with the carrier and also having to wear the cone of shame...

They removed the tumor and it isn't good news...The Vet was sugar coating it...And I told him my Father was a Vet and Mom a RN...So please don't sugar coat things...He said the tumor was connected muscle on her leg and she may have problems with that leg... She isn't so far... So I don't think it is a problem.. He said the tumor was contained...And it grew from the last time I was there...They sent the tumor to Iowa State University to be tested...They have a great vet school...we will find out what kind ttumor and what course of action...He wanted to let me know it didn't look good...so decision will be made..

My daughter was up all night keeping watch because Molly has to wear the cone of shame...other wise if she isn't wearting it she will pull out the drainage tubes..Monday we go back to have them removed...then 8 days later the sutures removed...Molly isn't happy about the cone of shame but I must tell you she is doing great...I was up every hour checking on Kim to see how she was doing... Then I relieved her to go to bed at 5:30 this morning...

I will probably be doing alot of mending while I am in David's old room keeping watch over Molly... We are keeping her in a small area so she doesn't over do it....

Russ took off for a 4 day weekend...Father's Day and our 25th anniversary...we can't go off and do anything...Right now we need to make Molly comfortable...

I appreciate all your prayers... It has been a rough week for us all...

Friday, June 17, 2011

UGH.....

Oh goodness...When it rains it pours sometimes with troubles...

I have a few prayer request...

Please pray for my friend Louann... She is petrified..She is in a hospital in Florida and she is being transported to another one to have a heart catherization done..Her husband is a truck driver is on the road... Please pray for her peace...

For Brenda... Brenda is my daugher in law Jessie's mom... I am not going into details but she lost her boyfriend.... Please pray for peace for her and his family...

Then my cat Molly is in surgery at this moment and it was so hard leaving her.. So I am sort of just drifting today...

Thanks guys...

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Library

Happy Wednesday, Hope your week is going great..

Please continue to pray for Louann, I talked with her yesterday and she is pretty sick.. She had a heart attack and found out she has diabetes on top of that. Pray for healing...

Yesterday Kim and I decided to go to the library..When the kids were young we went all the time...Kim was no longer in the system and had to get a new one... I hadn't used my card since 2007 and I had a fine... so I was in the system and I paid the fine...Felt bad....

The floods of 2008 destroyed the beautiful library where it once stood...They lost a lot of books...The library re-opened up in a mall that had a lot of empty stores. I was shocked when I went into the library andwas socked in how small it was...I had been so critical about them in how much it was costing to build the new one...plus where they were going to build it...why build it where it had flooded...not in the same spot but another spot..I still don't know why they are doing it... But I realized our library lost alot of books...I missed the huge clean library... I also realized I had sold alot of my books at yard sales these past few years and I could have donated the books... So for now on good books will be donated to the library...
It was nice to check out some books..

This morning it has been raining alot and it was nice to curl up under a quilt and read...now it is time to get moving and getting some much needed chores done...

Not much happening right now..

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

rainy day

Good mornng....

I have a prayer request.. Please pray for Louann, She is in ICU, possible heart attack.. She has been a friend for a very long time...I thank you for your prayers in advance..

I was dreading one thing and I have procrastinated in doing it or so long...I didn't want to face it. It is called the budget... Usually I don't have a problem sitting down and working on it. I knew I was spending alot of money in dirt and mulch for the garden.. And all the seedling stuff that never worked out.. Then buying the plants to replace the seedlings...So I didn't want to face the budget..Gardening is not cheap but fresh veggies is out of the world and it is so worth it at times..But as I said a few post ago that I can only do so much...Sooooooooooo


Yesterday afternoon I got out all the papers to sit down and work out the budget for the next year...Yes I said year.. We have alot of things that need to get done...

1)Kim and college...no loans..so we have to pay cash for college...Thank goodness she had a paid internship.. She has most of it...but she has no extra money for car payments and car insurance and personal stuff...

2) Molly's surgery this Friday

3) Our car needs the recall done and a oil change..

4) The truck needs an oil change and the check engine light to be checked out

5) Need a new hot water heater soon...ours is 15 years old...

6) Need a roof soon... next spring..

7) Vet visit for the other cat and 2 dogs...

I know there is more... just can't think of it..This is why I was dreading doing the budget... We need to really watch everything I spend..

I discovered already this month in how much extra spending we have done.. How much we have wasted...Eating out this month already and these are trips to Wendy's to get frosties after gardening to Icee's at Casey's after yard work.. McDees for Frappe's or lunch...YES YES we have been bad... Not healthy at all...But this is the 14th day of June and we have spent $97 on that stuff... So that stuff will no longer be happening...

Besides Russ's work, Human resources came to a meeting and explained new health care stuff....Last year they had this stuff that you filled out and you can save $300 each a year on paying for insurance...well this year if you want the same savings you have to improve all your vitals with blood test by 5% and it has to be by November...yeah give us a lot of time to improve 5%...I think it is a great idea but give us alittle more time!!! Geesh...but it did come at a good time when I sat down and figured out how much we were spending on the unhealthy stuff... talk about God's timing and telling me I am on the right track!!

Food budget will be watched sharply and menues planned out and less meat...But I want to make fun things that are healthy...I am looking forward to this...

I am not letting the list above get me down...Actually it has motivated me to embrace different things.. get my budgeting books out and my frugal books out to help me fulfill these goals...

I love goals...I made a list of goals to mend all these quilts in the evenings while watching TV...I have bought quilts the last few months and they need mending...I will be doing that and getting them all done...

Kim and I were talking over the weekend that she wanted to go to the libary.. I have not used my library card since 2007!!! She is finding out since she has the Kindle that the books to download right now are to expensive... so she wanted to get some books and she is looking into the libraries section she can download to her kindle.....

We just have to change course with our spending... It will be a challenge...We are taking one thing at a time to do... First one on that list is Molly's surgery... then Kim's car and our car and truck...and the whole time we are putting $$$'s aside for her college expenses...I told Kim that instead of being upset about not getting loans that she won't owe anyone for loans and interest....Yeah we will be tight with the $$'s but hey we can do it...Instead of the saying "I think I can" We are going with the phrase of "I Know we can".....


Have a great day...

Monday, June 13, 2011

A great weekend....

This past weekend was a great weekend....Alot of things happened and alot of decisions are being made...

Yesterday morning Russ and I bought a manual lawn mower... I know people must think I am nuts... I can not for the life of me start the lawn mower...I can start the manual one!!! hee hee... Anyways there has been times I wanted to get a head start on mowing the back yard.. With Russ's back he just can't do it anymore.. I can not always depend on my older son to do it because he works.. So I wanted something that I could handle... Russ has sharpening tools to keep the blades sharpened...I am not saying it is easy but I can start the thing!!! I just whip it out of the shed and just start pushing it.. The back yard is not big because I would say half of the yard is garden....so it will take me 10 minutes to mow the back yard or maybe alittle more time...but I don't have to wait for Russ to start the lawn mower and then he stands and feels guilty about watching me struggle with the heavy lawnmower...so the guilties will be gone...I can get the back yard mowed in the early morning because the manual you see is very quiet... :) I am happy about this new purchase. Plus when I am using it Holly won't chase it.. She likes to attack the lawn mower and weed whacker when we use it so she has to stay in doors....Now if I could only get the weed whacker to corporate with me to where I won't throw the darn thing down the slope...I have done that before with other weed whackers...Weed whackers and I are enemies....they are evil things that won't work properly for me... So I must be on my best behavior with it...I do so love to weed whack the evil weeds with it when it is working properly for me.. I worked on the mowing and weed whacking yesterday...Saturday was weeding the veggie garden...

This week I would like to finish the outside of the deck this year with staining it..I never finished it last year...I got my extension pole for painting back from Tim and Jessie...I love my kids dearly but man oh man when they borrow things they don't like to return things right away and then I have to ask for them back and they want to know the reason why I want it back...Why or why do I have to explain when I want something back that is ours in the first place......My kids!!!

Here are some pictures....Again I hope they are in the right order...



My precious Holly, She had been outside with us working in the yard and she was so tired...She loves the quilts as much as I do...



Here are some peaches on the peach tree...Russ weeded all around the fruit trees and put down mulch around the trees..



I have tomatoes growing and I am so excited...I have a patio tomato to and it has tomatoes...



I love love yellow crook neck squash...love it better than zucchini...quite frankly I am tired of zucchini and I have 8 planted.. But the yellow squash is in a container... They are doing extremely well.. Knock on wood!!!



Here is a tiny little one just starting on the yellow squash vine...

I hope you have a fantastic day....It is beautiful outside...Have had the AC off for 4 days now during the day...

May your day be filled with many Blessings...

Saturday, June 11, 2011

alot of decisions to make...

Saturday-- It has been a real nice cool day... the sun has come out and it is nice...A/C is off and windows opened.... It is so nice to have fresh air blowing through the house...

Russ and I have been doing alot of talking...We have avoided some issues about our health and have been working like we have no health issues and we just can't keep at the pace we have been doing..

We spent this morning weeding..We were so far behind with the weeding and it was so nice not having sweat drip down our faces.. It hit me after weeding that I felt the same as when it was hot outside and I trully thought with me weeding in the cool morning hours that I would be fine after weeding...It isn't so...

I could tell with Russ in how his back was hurting...He finally told me that his back is alway aching and he doesn't know how many more summers he can garden..

So sadly this is going to be our last year with big time gardening...We will container garden and I will have my place where I grow my tomatoes and peppers..but all vine stuff will end this summer.. I have told several friends that my passion is not there this summer but I felt that I HAD to do it... I was doing it because I thought Russ wanted to...Russ was doing the same thing..Ha.. So we had a long talk and our yard is so many different levels and we decided that we are going to save for two years to have a landscaper come in and do landscaping with the back yard and terrace it... We always thought we could do it but we just don't have it in us to do it anymore... Next year we will have few veggies and then we would suppport local farmers...We will go to farmers markets...

We have found out all we do is garden and then we are so tired we collaspe and don't go out and enjoy ourselves.. We have found that we are so stressed about the whole garden and when Russ and I talked and we both came to the same conclusion that we felt the same we felt this tension leave us...

With getting older we have to change our ways sometimes and can't keep doing things that we did in our 30's or 40's...I will always have tomatoes and peppers...and flowers and ect...but a big garden no we just can't do it anymore...I can't do it by myself.. I can't have Russ doing what he has been doing with his back...So we forge ahead in doing other things..

I have always wanted my porch to be my place to go and read and spend time with the Lord..Like a secret garden.... It is always last on the list and I am so tired from all the gardening that I never get to it...so next year I will be redoing the porch... or this winter I may be making things for the porch so I can sit in the mornings or evenings and read...I would love match stick blinds to roll down in the afternoons to block the afternoon sun..I want roses surrounding the patio....So I am making plans...

So our life is changing before us but I think it will be so much fun....We are going to be celebrating our 25th anniversary on the 21st of June and after talking with Russ we are going to start our year taking care of our health.. We are going to go visit an Amish Village... I can't wait... We want to go to the one north of us... I have to find where that is and if it is better than Kalona...

I will continue the garden this year and hopefully be blessed with abundance of food... I do have baby yellow squash and I do have tomatoes growing...I was very excited to see that... I have baby cucumbers..I love cucumbers..The cucumbers and yellow squash are in containers...doing very well..

Tomorrow we will have to mow the back yard and weed whack...OH OH!!! I was starting to mow the front yard friday night and Kimberly came out and asked if she could do it...I was shocked....My daughter never has mowed...why you say?? Because she has 3 brothers who did the mowing.. I have to say she did a fantastic job and she was very proud...Now her brothers can't tease her that she can't mow....

Have yourselves a beautiful weekend and may it be filled with many Blessings...

Thursday, June 9, 2011

storms rolled in...

Good morning... Yesterday was a warm one... I felt it was the warmest day yet.. I didn't water my veggies yesterday because they said rain was coming.. We had very little rain in the morning so I felt that the plants could wait...

Then the storm clouds rolled in.. I kept texting back and forth with my son Dan because he has always been fascinated with weather.. He would make a good storm chaser.. He asked me if it is raining where I am at... I said absolutely nothing yet.. I was a little ticked because I hadn't watered my plants and I was giving the weathermen another chance.. and with all the clouds there was no rain!! Well as soon as the dark cloud passed over our house oh boy!!! The winds started and the rain.. Then my son Tim texted me and said "bad bad hail" Others were saying the same thing...that it was hailing and they were large hail.. I am very lucky because as far as I know we did not have hail...



The sky behind the cloud was bright orange from the sun going down...This was when I was mad because I didn't think we would get any rain... We ended up with 2.9 inches of rain last night..



Another picture... just so pretty...

We had another round last night around 3 am... the weather alert radio went off again around 3 am... scared me to death as I was hearing thunder off in the distance.. It was alerting that that there was a flood watch.. ....boy was it going off while the storms were rolling in yesterday evening.. I am so thankful to have it...I will tell you sometimes it is annoying.. But I would rather be annoyed for a short time then not knowing something is happening with the weather...This year the weather has been fierce all over the country...

Yesteday I did lot of cleaning.. I had let it go the last couple of days.. I don't know how it becomes so messy with just Russ and Kim and I here...it's the mail piling up and just stuff... Need to de-clutter big time...

I started in on my sewing room...talk about a mess.. Stuff gets piled in there and my goal was to have it always neat... that didn't last long...I just don't know how the messes materialize...they just seem to grow by themselves... :) Just like weeds in the garden.. they just pop up everywhere...

Well I need to get to my chores once more....

Have a wonderful day and may it be filled with many blessings...

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Garden pictures..

Good morning to you.... I decided to show some of my veggies..Please excuse the weeds and we need to mow the grass once again..Dan is coming to mow this afternoon..I tried to tell him no because it is to hot..But he said it will take him 20 minutes.. He won't have any time for the rest of the week because he is in training to open up the new Buffalo Wild Wings...I told him if he mows he stays for dinner and he agreed...

As for Molly she had a hard day yesterday and she has been so loving..Poor thing.. Her little heart beat was beating at 270 a minute at the vets office yesterday..So it wore her out.. She is doing very well and thank you again for the prayers.. Will be asking to pray for her on the 17th... I am leaving the cat carrier out for her to get use to it...If I put it up and then bring it out she will bolt under something and I don't feel like dealing with that at 6:30 in the morning... So she will get use to it being out... The outcome is all in God's hand and I feel so at peace about this...

I am hoping I do this in order...It doesn't show the picture like it use to be..



This is one side of the yard all fenced off...alot of veggies are being there..zucchini, acorn squash and butter nut squash.. our yard is so sloped...




I planted cucumbers in the big pots on either side of the doors of the shed..I have trellised that I need to stick in the pots...and I need to do it soon..



This is the area where we took out one of the stumps and I worked on this corner and planted the pumpkins..the two larger pumpkins are from seeds we grew inside...the others that are sticking out and are growing fast are almost catching up with the others we started in doors...next year I am not going to bother with seeds indoors... I am going to put seeds directly in the ground...



Some of my herbs that are in containers...I need to clip them and dry them..



yellow crook neck squash in containers this year...I have about 4 containers of yellow sqaush..



Here is another picture of the garden...



I have 2 containers of eggplant...I am the only one who likes eggplant.. so I felt only 2 were needed... I can't freeze them so I will enjoy them this summer..



I am trying sugar baby watermelon in containers to... this is a trail and I have the split rail behind the container that I will try and train the vine to grow on..



Purple beans or magic beans because they change from purple to green while cooking.. some did not come up so I will be putting some more in the ground in the next few days..



Tomatoes.. I have 6 more in different areas because they are different than these...

I have so much weeding to do over the next few days...it is going to be cooler and I will take advantage of the cooler weather to catch up on my weeding...

I hope you enjoyed the pictures...
Have a wonderful day and may it be filled with many Blessings..

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

update on Molly

I really appreciate everyone's prayers.. They help so much...

Molly has cancer... They drew the liquid from the tumor and it was bloody and I knew right away.. The good thing is the liquid did not have alot of cancer cells.. The Doctor was wonderful.. She said that she thinks 99% percent that the tumor is removeable... And they gave me an estimate and I can afford it..

I had been so worried about not affording it and having to put her down..I trully believe if you have an animal that your in it for the long hall..Even tho Molly is a pill sometimes, she is a wonderful cat and I didn't know how to tell Kim we could not afford the surgury... So I am thrilled that it can be removed and it won't be hurting the budget.... So she will have her surgery next friday... She will have to wear the cone of shame.. Poor thing..That will NOT sit well with her at all..

It is a hot one today...UGH... So hot.. we asked for the warmer weather didn't we... I checked my veggie plants and watered them and they look great from this warm weather.. this weekend I will be weeding.. As I was watering I looked at our peach tree and we have peaches...I counted about 15....first year for peaches!!! I am thrilled about that...

Have a great day and keep cool....

Monday, June 6, 2011

A little prayer please...



This is Molly, my daughters Kim's cat... We have had her for 13 years.. Tomorrow we will be taking her to the Vets, I have noticed she has lost some weight and since she has lost weight I found a tumor... Last week when I discovered it was the size of a ping pong ball. Today when I saw it, when she was sitting in sitting postion sort of popping out it was much bigger.. So I put in a call to the vet and I am going to a different one who I liked very much when we I helped my daugther in law with Buddy.. So Kim and I will be taking Molly to the vet tomorrow...

Please pray that it can be fixed... I am not looking forward to this whole thing.. Molly is our eldest of our animals..I am praying that it is nothing and can be taken out..without alot of cost.

She is family and I will eat boxed mac and cheese to have her longer..Even tho Molly is not the sweetest of cats that I have had..But this past month all she wants to do is curl up on me when I have a quilt on me..She has become very loving and have fallen head over heals with Molly because she has turned into this sweet loving cat...

Please send up prayers for Molly...Lisa

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Sunday Evening...

Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend...

We had a quiet weekend and Russ and I went out to lunch at HuHuts...It is monoglian food... We went to Iowa City one... Sometimes we do take a break with the budget. That is the only budget buster we did this weekend so I think we did great...

Last night our weather alert radio went off twice.. It's the first time it has gone off since we got it all programed...It was in the living room....It scared the tar out of me and thought it was the fire alarms starting to go off...I am the only one who heard it..I woke Russ and when I wake up Russ from a deep sleep well lets say he is not with it.. another thing is the dogs did NOTHING and my Golden Retriever who barks at everything...he was in a deep sleep...My germy who follows me everywhere didn't even get up to follow me...My adreline was sure going. I came up and realized it was not the fire alarms...Thank you Lord... I saw it was the weather alert radio.. I read it once and twice and the third time... It was a Amber Alert... HUH??? Didn't know it was programed for that... I said a quick prayer for the little one... It took me a good hour and a half to get back to sleep... I felt I had been asleep for a few minutes and it was going off again... I woke up Russ once again and once again he was not with it...I was hoping this time that he would get up...NOPE....urrr... Not happy... So I went back up and checked it out....This time it was severe thunderstorm warnings for Johnson county... I said a quick prayer for a blogger that lives in Johnson county that she doesn't get any more damage...

I was planning on going to church...when the second time the radio went off I thought I would just relax in bed till it was time to get ready... Ha...I should have gotten up because I fell asleep...Never sleep that late...it felt good...I felt that I wasted my day tho...

Tonight the weather radio is down stairs so no more running upstairs...

I water my veggies this evening....I have to say my container veggies are doing very well... so easy to maintain... no weeds...See if it stays this easy..

This afternoon I made a room by room list of things I wanted to accomplished in each room...I start tomorrow...Then I made a list of all the projects I have started and not finished and I want to start finishing them.. Of course this is not new...I have been making these list of projects to finish for the last year and it never gets done... I am hoping I can start the list...

With my garden I want to work on different parts of it each day in the early morning hours so the weeds don't win this year...

I worked on my blog last night and today... I deleted the cache and went back to the old templates... I woke this morning and blogger must have fixed things.. or I did...who knows...then I worked on it again with a new background...Hopefully I won't change it for a while...

Have a great week...

Saturday, June 4, 2011

commenting...

I am commenting on other blogs and I am not sure if it is going through or not...URRRR....So to my blogger buddies I am trying to post...Lisa

Saturday morning...

It's the 4th day of June and I don't know where the first 3 days went...days are sure flying by...

I am suppose to be sleeping but can't...I have been enjoying the peace and quiet time...

We have spent alot of money with the garden ths year... Especially on dirt... our compost pile is not self sufficient yet..it would be further along but I am not adding to it like I should...Will be working on that more..

I went grocery shopping yesterday...OUCH...But I did buy a lot of meat this time..I was completely out..I was also buying things that would be quick to make and won't be using the oven as much...that means alot of grilling stuff.. Crock pot stuff to..

Russ and I talked about curbing our spending for the summer and go back to our allowances... Watching our pennies because alot of expenses are going to occur....we aren't freezing the spending...that is really hard to do and as of right now I know we would fail and I don't want to go through all that...So we decided to cut way back and no more spending on the garden or other things...We will have to make due with whaat we have.... The mulching is done except for one area...That will be done soon...

I am going to re-purpose a couple of things... I will be taking before and after pictures...I have the spray paint to do my projects...Of course the other day I saw the 8 cans of black spray paint and I couldn't remember what I bought them for...Old age...

Looks like today is going to be gloomy and good for doing some indoor things..

Russ and I are trying to figure out what we want to do for our 25th anniversary...It's the 21st...We are tossing things back and forth...

That is it for me on this early saturday morning....Have a great weekend and may it be filled with many Blessings...

Thursday, June 2, 2011

So much accomplished yesterday...



It's a rainy day today... I love the qoute that says "God makes rainy days for gardeners so they can do housework" That is so true...

This morning I woke to Thunderstorms..Of course I did NOT do housework... I read magazines... and relaxed...

Yesterday morning it was so pretty outside and I turned off the AC and went outside..I tied all the tomatoes to there stakes, weeded the tomatoe area and the bean area and the strawberrry, pepper areas.. Okay I did alot of weeding.. My Son Dan called me and said he would do the lawn the following day which is today.. I asked if he had time today (yesterday) He said yes if I picked him up right then and there...So I dropped everything I was doing...Went and picked and picked him up...The back only needed mowing. Then he unlaoded all the mulch that had been sitting in the truck all last weekend... The we used 4 of the 8 bags and got them all spreaded in the areas I had weeded...OH mulch makes things look so pretty afterwards...

I took Dan back home because he was helping someone redo their home..

I came back home and ate some lunch and went back out to work some more... Planted some more of my viney plants..transplanted some strawberries that was in a container...then I went and worked on the area where the stumps were removed... I added good rich dirt and peat moss and mixed it all together and planted pumpkins...

I came in and took a nice shower.... It feel so good taking a shower and relaxing after working in the gardens...I still had 4 bags of mulch to do..I really wanted it all done yesterday... I cooked dinner and then headed back out to spread mulch...Russ came out to help and planted three more canteloupe plants by the back fence line.. so my goals were accomplished and everything is being watered by rain which they do so much better...Yesterday weather was fantastic....this weekend is suppose to be a hot one and all I have to do is water and snatch out the wicked weeds..Some are so nasty this year...

I was madder than a hornet nest last night tho... My German Shepherd is my shadow...Always with me and will tell me when someone is around...The last few nights I couldn't figure out why Holly my germy was upset...then my Remmy he barks at everything..even if the wind blows...bark collars do not work... Well Last night Russ and I were working in the garden...She was watching and she saw two kids and she barked her gruff bark as I call it...she gruffs to let me know someone is near by...Well the kids threw rocks at her and I stood up and said excuse me!! Well I scared the tar out of them because they didn't know I was out there and I yelled that I know there faces and the cops willl be called next time.. oh it makes me madder than a hornet...NO ONE throws things at my dogs or kids... And anyone who knows me I will let people know how I feel.. For now on I will be taking my dogs out with me and I will have my camera on and ready...I normally don't cause problems..I WILL Call the police and will have pictures of these kids so they know who they are dealing with... We have a 6 foot high wooden fence.. And today is the last day of school so I just can't wait for summer and these kids...I don;t think they will do it again because when I stood up and one was going to throw a rock and I looked at him right in the eyes and said excuse me?? He dropped the rock and ran....Hopefully they won't do it again but I am not going to take chances...

Today is inside work and reading...

Hope your day is going great...

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Make up day.....

Oh the weather is just gorgeous.... Russ went back to work... I am going to go and play in the garden and get all the things I wanted to get done this past weekend, but couldn't because of all the rain...

Have a wonderful beautiful day....