Friday, September 30, 2011

going home tomorrrow...

I haven't been able to update you because the wi-fi is not good here at the hosptial..
From my last post I was pretty drugged up... My spirits are up.. I am feeling better... I will have home care coming in and helping with antibiotics that still have to be IV fed...

I am a diabetic and compared to what I have been through the whole diabetic stuff will be a breeze....

Will update ya'll tomorrow...

Many Blessings to all of you and I feel all the prayers...Lisa

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

hello

I wanted to keep you updated...Please pray for me...I am very very ill...

The port that was put in got infected very bad...It never healed from the surgury and I questioned them at the time of the first chemo if they should wait a week...butingthey insisted it was aright....then the seoond chemo then with the same then with the second chemo I question because it ached....no it is okay....well a week went by and my arm was so sore then on saturday I became violently ill I had a high fever...
We to the Er at the thought I was nuts.... So they had me stay over night and a infectiou disease Doctor came to my rescue and he felt it was my port....What he says goes.... So they called in the doctor who put it in...when he sliced into it all this puss came pouring out it... That was the cause of it... My lungs are now infected and will have to have them drained in the morning...I am very ill.... on top of dealing with diabetis... I sm at my wits end....I will not have another port put in..not sure what I could do....but my oncologist has been awesome and so is the infectious disease doctor and now the pulunmary doctore...This afternoon I broked down and told them I want to die....

Anyways I sitting here in my bed....with Russ beside me worry sick...Kids have been my my side....doctors said another day I would not have made it...

I will keep you posted....please pray the lung procedure will turn out good....Lisa

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Prayer is needed for my mom

Hi everyone....This is Lisa's daughter Kim. My mom was admitted to the hospital today with an infection. They believe the infection is in her port and it will probably have to be removed. We also found out that she has diabetes. She will be in the hospital for a few days, so please pray for her.

Thanks!

Kim

Friday, September 23, 2011

Sweet weekend coming up!!!!



Good Friday morning....
Thought I would show you how scarves look or turbans with a scarf...Believe me the one is red and not orange..I am truly have fun trying different ones...

Yesterday I did get in the crafts room...I have so much and a pile of things that really shouldn't be in there...but I am not going to worry over it...But I can get in and play....

I can not wait till my daughter comes home today..pray for safe travels...

I have many things to do this weekend and the number one is I want to go to church so bad and I told Russ nothing is going to hold me from going...That time is going to be reserve for the Lord....How I miss it..and you know what?? All the times I didn't go because I was to dang lazy to go and now I want to...I told Russ every other weekend I will go...The weekend after the chemo my immune system is way to low..But knowing how my body works now and feeling the bone marrow grow and I know my immune system can handle going...As long as I am careful...So this Sunday is church for.... Tonight and Saturday is dedicated to my sweet dear daughter... and we are going to watch some FOOT BALL!!!! Now all I have to do is decide on is chili or Mexican fiesta.... one tonight and one for the football game...I will let her decide... Russ will pick up everything tonight on his way home from work... Sweet....

It is a cool day.... I love it...Men are working on the apartments roofs... Hammering... new roof...I don't mind the noise...It use to bother me...I use to get bent out of shape for small stupid things.. Now nothing really bothers me that much... And knowing they are working is a blessing...

Have a GREAT weekend....love your family and have some fun because I am.... Many blessings to you..

Thursday, September 22, 2011

I feel free.....

I can't explain it but I feel so free this morning...

Last night Russ finished up shaving my head...I couldn't see the back...I did it myself but I knew I missed alot in the back...I had cut my hair real short so I could get use to having no hair.. Then last night it was all done...no more hair...It felt great.. The reason for so many tears was because I didn't know what I would look like or what Russ would think...again my husband came through... So now I am free from the bondage of my hair and all the emotions...

The funny part is now I want to wear my cotton hats... not the caps... My head is cold!!! Last night I went to bed with no hat on... I had the fan on...I use the fan when it is -40 out side...Have to have the air circulation... I got up in the middle of the night to put a cotten turban style hat on..Oh did it feel good and warm..Now I want to look for some cute sleep hats...they are so pretty...

When I stepped into the shower last night after shaving the hair...I started laughing.... I didn't know what to use on my head...Soap or shampoo??? I used shampoo... then I got out and had two towels sitting out...one for head and one for body...I was a every night shampooer... I laughed again...don't need second towel...Save on towels!!!

And another funny thing I noticed...I use to flip my hair alot....Never knew that.....Until I went to flip it and there was nothing there..I am laughing out for no reason now and Russ looks at me and I said another funny habit I found I had... Things you learn...

Today is going to be a lazy day for me...After chemo the next day, I go in for this shot to help the bone marrow come back... well you feel the bone marrow a week after the shot...Man oh man I am feeling it today in my hips and chest and shoulders...It is a good thing...It means my body is working right...So I will embrace it with some tylenol and rest...

I also made my first pot of coffee...I don't drink ocffee...I don't like warm drinks... Ice cold the better... But for some reason I wanted coffee.. So I called Russ in how to make it...don't laugh because seriously I didn't know.. So he told me ...Then I got out mocha cappincchino stuff... After the coffee was done I put the mocha stuff in it...OH MY GOODNESS I am hooked...I loved it...I trully feel awake now...So I sipped on my mocha coffee listening to my DVD fireplace and the fire crackling and watching the birds eating....talk about feeling free...it was so nice to just sit and feeling free...

I never got to the craft room but will try and get to it a little later...I would like to plan some things to make for Christmas....Christmas is going to be a home made christmas...I am loving the feeling of a down home country christmas...

I am pretty excited...My daughter Kim is coming home friday night from college.. She wants to see me and her cat Molly... She has to work saturday evening so she will be here the one night..I am so looking forward to seeing her.. She wants to watch her favorite college football team... So I will be making a pot of chili for the game... it will be a while till I see her again because she is working weekends...I told Russ on my good weekends I would like to surprise her and bring her a goodie box one afternoon...her school is only an hour and 10 minutes away...So it will be nice to get out one afternoon...

Have a great day and may it be filled with many blessings....

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Changes...

Just wanted to show you the new me right now... No hair...but hats on... I am reminding you to get your Mammos... Please don't forget....

Last night I had a melt down about the whole hair thing...Bad hair day...I ended up shaving my head...I had to..The hair falling out all over the place about drove me 6 feet under...My husband helped...What a dear sweet man I have... I felt so defeated last night.. But my rock saved the day...

My life is based on a foundation that is held up by the Lord and the head of our home on this earth is my dear sweet husband... And he took charge last night..

Today is different...I woke feeling great that I have the foundation firm...

I love fireplaces and this home doesn't have one so I have this DVD of a real fireplace burning and you can hear the fire crackling...I sat and had some devotion time with the Lord while listening to the fire crackle and then I started cleaning... Then my older son called and asked if he could do anything...I went and picked him up and he mowed the yard...One less thing I have to worry about...Then I cleaned all around the front door...OH MY GOODNESS did we have these big ugly brown spiders this year..UGH...I sprayed them and then they all died and I put out my fall decos around the front door...Fed the birds the rest of the bird seed I had...This weekend I will get more...I love watching the birds..Simple blessings...

Again here is the new me... Have a great day...



This is the cream color hat...It is very comfortable..



This is my favortie...I love the sparkles...and one of my favortie colors is red...

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Guess what I did....

Happy Tuesday...I am feeling back to normal....I feel my energy coming back..

Not one doctor has told me to take vitamins...I know I am not eating right. Because like being prego and the nausea, I feel like I am prego in that area... Of course I am not.. So I am going to take vitamins... of course that is not what I did...

Last weekend I asked Russ if he could take a look at my little bug...My little bug is a Hoover canister vacuum...it's a small one... I love the thing..it has suction power that is better then my upright.. The bug has a automatic chord thing...push a button and it sucks up the cord... Well it sucked it up the last time and it got all tangled and Russ looked up on the Internet and it said this is a known problem but if you take it apart you my break wires....well I couldn't use the vacuum because the chord was so tight inside the chord would heat up...Because I thought I would just use an extension chord to use..So we talked and said I couldn't use it the way it is so why not try and take it apart...Russ was successful with taking it apart and undoing the chord...I won't wind it up anymore with the automatic winder....

Anyways my hair is driving me nuts or what little is left...There was hair all over the couches and it wasn't the dogs hair either...Before the chemo I kepted telling Russ my hair is thinning alot and that I may have to wear a wig one day...Thats what I thought..well let me tell you I have so much hair... It's everywhere...So I was sucking up my hair with the little bug off the couches...Geeez....Ha I thought okay I am going to use the little bug on my own head!!!! And I vacuumed my head...I never thought in a million years I would do that... anyway it helped with the hair falling all over the place....The things we do...

Today I am going to work in my craft room...I haven't really been in there much...I thought I would spend some time in there...but I haven't wanted to.. Don't know why.. But I m feeling it today to go and straighten it out because I have thrown alot of things in there.. I feel the urge to start doing some crafting once again...

I have decided not to wear hats in the house.. They drive me nuts..just when I walk at a fast pace to get the mail...HEE HEE.. I feel so much better with out the hat...I am wanting all my hair gone now..I am ready...the shorter cut was the way to go so I can get use to the baldness....Now it's time to have it all come off...but I will not shave it...Geeez I would probably cut my head so many times..So I will continue to vacuum my head.. HEE HEE....I will tell you it feels pretty cool...

I have been watching alot of HGTV and getting ideas...Maybe that's why I want to work in my craft room...

It's a beautiful day outside... I got on the scale today and have lost 10 pounds... Not that I am saying cancer is a way to lose weight but if I do that is one blessing.... Oh and this is the most important... the tumor as shrunk... I didn't have to search before and now I have to feel alot to find what is left of it... so God is blessing me so much...I know God is going to heal.. I feel it...

Well off to the craft room.. Have a great day and may it be filled with many many blessings...

Monday, September 19, 2011

Monday

Today is a beautiful day....The sun is out and I love the fresh air...

Last night I decided to cut alot of my hair off before I showered last night..My hair was falling out at a fast rate and it was driving me nuts..The night before the tub was filled with so much hair and I had a fear we were going to get a clog in the sewer line..I didn't want that expense right now...Plus I had such a fear of going bald and I wanted to cut the hair short so I could take that next step before going bald... So I cut alot of off...Gathered some of the hair to make my own real natural bangs.. Yup I am cheap and with real hair stuff is way out of my price range...

So I came out of the shower and crawled into bed...Russ had already fallen asleep...Or at least I thought he was...He woke up and took one look and said I looked beautiful...Of course I started bawling..Good grief I have cried more in the lsst month then our entire marriage of 25 years...Russ is finally getting use to the tears and he just holds me...Thats all I need...

But this whole hair thing is not easy... It is down right depressing to see your hair fall out..But I have to get use to it... There is no other way.. Hats and turbans are driving me absolutely nuts...hey all cover your ears....I don't like my ears covered...I want to hear things all around me.. So maybe I have to shine my head when I am completely bald and put on these huge loop earrings and fold my hands like Mr. Clean.....

My main goal is to figure out something that looks good and stays on your head and doesn't cover up your ears...Maybe cute head bands....I don't know...

Friday night my son and his wife brought us some pizza...it was good pizza and it was good not to cook..

My kids think I am so sick that I can't do anything..I have tried to explain to them that I am okay...My son Tim wants to brng over there extra mattress and set it up in the spare bedroom so I don't have to go up and down stairs..I tried to explain to him my legs and arms are okay it's my boob that isn't good and it just sits and does nothing...I love my kids and I am not a preson who likes to be waited on...that is a big issue for me... All tho I did tell Tim that the dinners are really nice... Because I am cooking all the time and not eating out anymore...We just can't spend the extra money on that...Besides I would be petrified to go out with a bald head or a hat..even tho hats are in this year..

I know the first time will be hard... then it will be a piece of cake after that...You should have seen me when I walked out to get the mail...I took off the turban because it looks ulgy to me...So I put on a baseball cap...Then I opened the garage door looked to see if anyone was walking down the street or driving down the street...I walked really fast and grabbbed the mail and then I grabbed the garbage bins and walked back in the garage at a high rate of speed......I was happy I didn't see anyone...In our neighborhood people don't really speak to each other...Only a few handful of people..other wise everyone doesn't have anything to do with anyone...that is one thing I don't like about this neighborhood.. I felt so stupid afterwards thinkng with this whole cancer thing It may bring this neighborhood together...I don't know.....I felt better after I went out the first time getting the mail.. So I know things will get better at each step I take...

I know I have said how many blessings Chemo has brought to our family..I don't want to lead on and say that chemo is a piece of cake...it isn't that at all...It is scary but once I went through it I knew what was going to happen...But the whole hair things is the scariest and it brings all these emotions out... Now all I do is look at hair cuts on TV....Telling my self how I will change once my hair comes back in...no more of the same hairdo for years and years...I am going to go totally different... :)

Well these are my thoughts for today...I hope you have a wonderful day...May it be filled with many blessings..

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Sunday Afternoon

It's been a quiet weekened..Not alot going on..

My second chemo went well...I am not as nauseated as the first time but tired yes...I don't have the foggy head either like last time...But again tired...I did managed to finish the living room with decorating...Not doing anymore..It is simple and that is what I wanted..Not alot of dusting and nic nacs..

My hair is falling out big time...It's to the point I may want to get rid of the rest because I feel hair all over and then I think it is a spider crawling on me...Or I get a piece of hair in my mouth or wrapped around my glasses...I guess the downside of chemo.. I guess it could be worse...

I have 2 more chemo sessions and then I have 12 weeks of other stuff...I have some good news and that is I can definitely feel it has gotten smaller...

My little angel Molly ( cat ) who had cancer and she has been by my side ever since I discovered cancer has her cancer back...I found 3 small tumors...I guess I am pretty down about that and I am sorry if I am down...But she is my angel..So it's going to very hard..God is in control and I know that... But it is still hard...So please pray for her that these tumors are gone...

I finished the side table that Russ has made me and it is decorated...Will have pictures tomorrow...I have put quilts on the bottom shelf and the cats love sleeping there...

Russ has been cutting out wooden ornaments for us to work on and paint for the holidays...Never made the salt dough ornaments but may try this week...Hopefully the energy will come back..It did last time..

I have had this craving for chocolate and vinilla ice cream cones...Goodness...It soothes the belly....

I have been taking care of my older sons cat and she is suppose to go today...My one cat Sophia does not like this cat one bit and have to keep them seperated...Dan isn't allowed to have cats in his new place..He has someone taking the cat to her parents home who have a farm...I can't take on a third cat besides my Sophia does not like this cat at all...So it has been a little stressful...

Have a great day and may it be filled with many blessings...

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Wednesday

Today was chemo day...Went faster today...My daughter in law came with me and it was nice...

Jessica had this big huge book and I thought she was studying because she was in her last semester of college...So I asked her what she was studying...Oh I got this Martha Stewarts book on cooking..And she is studying Thanksgiving dinners...I laughed to so hard..She has no idea.. I told her about my first thanksgiving dinner in how I left the neck and gizzards in the turkey....Had no idea they were there...We talked about all these foods and then we realized the lady 2 chairs away had a barf bag and we realized we were making her queasy talking about food and I apologized to her..So we stopped talking about food...Now if she barfed I would have to...

I started on a crocheted scarf for winter while getting chemo and all the nurses were in awe and thought the yarn I was using was beautiful...My foot massager was watching me crochet. There are 3 wonderful nurses and the foot massager that work with me that are getting a scarves from me...I have all kinds of yarn...They all loved the natural colors I was using...So I will stay with natural colors..

The chemo went good...I knew what to expect...last time I didn't and I didn't know what to expect...This time I knew and it went faster...I have felt some nausea and a head ache...Ginger ale helps...I really didn't feel like eating and had some wanton soup...I am tired...

Tomorrow I have to go back for the shot for the bone marrow...

Friday I go in to get a blood test for A1C glucose level...It will show my blood glucose levels for the past 4 months..My oncologist thinks I may be diabetic...UGH...Please pray I don't have to deal with that on top of all this...I know I can change things with food...I love pasta and will have to watch it...If it is okay this is also a wake call for me..

The good news I saw my oncologist saw me today and I will be seeing her the beginning of each chemo session..She normally doesn't see patients until the 4th chemo treatment but because of my heart and then how large my tumor is she wants to see me....I told her that I check the tumor every few days and I told her I think it is in my head but I think it has shrunk...I told her I feel it dieing....It tingles...So she checked the tumor and told me that it is NOT in my head that it has shrunk alittle.....Happy dance !!!!

Monday, September 12, 2011

Monday...

We had a really nice weekend...It went very fast...Russ woke this morning groaning in the fact he has a full 5 days of work...He has taken some days off with all my doctor appointments and then Labor Day...

Sunday was beautiful....I was worn down a bit and stayed home from Church...We slept late and then I woke and made pancakes for my hubby... I hadn't made them in a long time...it was a very good...My throat was giving me some problems because I wouldn't give up spicy foods and with the digestive problems chemo does it was a no no for me...I needed to go to less spicy foods...so pancakes are soft and the pancakes hit the spot. Then Russ and I decided to work on some wood projects...Russ finshed another side table for me to go in front of the bannister...This morning I painted it a midnight blue and then I will stain it tomorrow...All my fall decos are sitting out waiting for a place...

I worked on finishing up some projects while Russ was working on the table..It as so good to get somethings finished.. Before cancer I was lazy...Cancer has changed me... no more procrastinating... that is a blessing...I have more energy right now then I did before chemo...Yes there are three or four days with each chemo treatment that I am tired and nuseated but the rest of the days are pretty amazing...I was so scared of chemo...I am not scared of the monster of chemo..I can handle it now and the only reason why I can handle it because I have this awesome God who stands beside me at all times...All I have to do is reach out and he holds me up...

Blessings from chemo
1) God is on my side
2) no more hair on my legs!! YES
3) no more hair under arms!! YES
4) Still have the hair on my head! YES
5)Russ and I are so close and thought we were close before...
6) I have wonderful friends that I didn't even think I had because I had a wall around me
7)I have a wonderful family that cares deeply
8)Today is a warm and beautiful day
9) I had lost my love of cooking and I have found it again
10) My creative juices are flowing once again which I felt I lost that

All those blessings were in front of me the whole time...but I took everything for granted...sometimes it takes something to bring things to light... I am so Blessed....

Have a wonderful day....

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Early Sunday Morning

Good morning... Woke early because I had a good nights sleep...

Friday night I couldn't sleep at all..Had some tea in the evening and it was caffeinated...So at 2:30 in the morning I made out a detailed grocery list...I made it for 2 weeks planning dinners and breakfast for Russ and then the lunches for Russ and I...I know this would be my last food shopping day for a while..And I plan on making them for 2 weeks each time so Russ doesn't have to do a weekly shopping trip...With fall coming upon us I can buy the fall squashes and they last longer then other veggies.. The menu plan got done at 2:30 in the morning and I fell asleep at 4 am slept till 8 am...

Saturday I decided we would do a lot of errands...I want to beable to make Sunday a day of rest for Russ and I...so we began our day going to get some meds for chemo on Wednesday so I didn't have to go into a pharmacy after chemo... sick people go in there... :) Then we stopped by Tim and Jessie's to get some wood that Tim was going to get rid of...I felt so blessed to get wood to make some christmas things...He gave us some cedar wood for fenceing and and he asked if I wanted it and I said yes...Russ is looking at me like what on earth do you have planned...anyways we have some future projects ahead of us...

We came home and changed from the truck to the car and headed to the local farm stand and we bought some fresh veggies..Prices ouch!!! We didn't buy alot because they didn't have butternut squashes in yet..I bought acorn tho...$2 a piece!!! ouch but I know they will be good.. We bought a watermelon and fresh homemade pickles...The pickles were $6 for the jar...I normally would spend that kind of money but I know this is how they make a living and I know they work hard... I felt good buying them and now I hope they are good..

I thought with the big college game being played because it is like the super bowl here in Iowa... I thought we could go grocery shopping at Walmarts because everyone would be home watching the game...I haven't been to walmarts in such a long time...And I was reminded why yesterday why I don't go there...We managed to get everything we needed for 2 weeks...Thats pet food to...The only thing I need to get is milk and eggs and some fruit...I kept wiping down the basket... When you know you have to watch germs you notice things big time... I don't know about you and how your raise your kids but I taught my kids don't touch!!! I saw so many kids touching so many things just going down the aisles touching..I know kids learn by touch... But man oh man Russ was noticing it and he would get a wippie for me and I would use it on the basket and then I have small bottle of handsantizer in my purse....I wanted to get out of Walmarts so bad... Then I get to the cashier and she was slow as a sloth... Let me tell you I am normally not bothered by it but she needed some caffeine big time...She talked like she was stoned and she wasn't because I have had her before..she is a sweet heart... Her conveyor belt was barely working so I was helping her and she kept thanking me because she said most won't... Anyways we finally got home and I was starving.... Russ and I unloaded the groceries and while I was putting them away he went to go and get Little Ceasar's pizza... For $8 we got a pizza and bread sticks... can't go to Wendy's and feed two people with $8...

So we sat down to eat the pizza and put on the big foot ball game... No sound... No picture at times... Called Tim and asked if he was having problems... He was not happy...this game was important to him because it was his college who was playing... He told me Media Com really messed things up... They had tech problems all through out the game till the last minute of the game... The game went into 3 over times and at least we watched them with sound and a picture...It was a good game and we have a lot of sad Hawkeye people in town..My Son's team WON!!! They were the underdogs... Tim is a very happy camper...I know he will be rubbing it in to alot of people at his work on Monday... Oh by the way the pizza was out of this world...I was so hungry...

I realized that I felt so run down and with Chemo it does some pretty crazy stuff to your body...I realized some mouth sores were in my mouth when I ate the pizza with tomato sauce but the pizza was good...I think I have sores down my throat to... Then I just wasn't feeling great and I also had a yeast infection so out to the store once again to Walgreens...I can't let my body run down...Oh they told me when I went to get my shot to help rebuild your white blood cells they said I would be having some pain in the bones and also in the sternum of your chest... Well they were right on with the sternum...I am so thankful I knew because I would have thought I was having a heart attack with the pressure you feel...I realize my body is working correctly...

There are times I feel like I don't have cancer because I feel so good... And those times I have to learn to slow down and not try and play catch up from the times I wasn't feeling good...I have to stop feeling guilty ......I think what is going to get me through this is planning things out... Like the menu plan and on my good days get projects laid out for my lazy days so I can get alot of needle work done...especially those days on chemo day sitting in a chair for a few hours....it's all about planning...

I was going to go to church this morning, I am achey this morning and I feel worn down from trying to play catch up yesterday.. I will put on my worhship songs and rest....

Have a wonderful Sunday and may it be filled with many blessings...

Friday, September 9, 2011



It's a gorgeous morning this morning...Fall like and it has gotten me in the mood for fall decorating...

I woke feeling so good...I know next wednesday it will start all over again...I making plans with resting my bad days and then on my good days just have fun...

Last weekend we picked apples from our apple tree and I am going to make apple sauce today...It won't be alot so I will make it to eat up this coming week...Then I have some tomatoes left that I will chop and make my own salsa for the week ahead...Our garden didn't farewell but I will not waste what we did get...

This weekend we will go and visit a local farm stand to see if they have butternut squash and acorn squashes since ours didn't do well at all...will start cooking them up and freezing them for winter..Russ and I both love butternut squash...especially when I mske it with brown sugar and pecans on top of it..So I can't wait to go and get some goodies...

This afternoon I would like to make salt dough ornaments for fall decorating...painting them while watching the big football game tomorrow..

Lets take a moment to pray for all those on the East Coast with the flooding and take a moment to pray that God keeps America safe this weekend....

Enjoy your day and may it be filled with many Blessings...

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Prayers are going out..

Prayers are going up for all those affected in Pennsylvania... We use to live near there and it is such a beautiful state...The floods are horrible and I pray that all the bloggers up in that region are safe...

Just know I am praying for your saftey during this difficult time...(((HUGS)))

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

a gorgeous day...



Fall is in tne air in Iowa....Goodness these past few days have been out of this world...It lifts the spirits in ya.. You guys lift my spirits... I keep saying that...Friends I have met through blogging and my church friends and my family and love your bro!!!

Yesterday my Pastor came for a visit and it was a very nice visit...He prayed for me and for the first time I woke with out a headache...A wonderful feeling...

Russ and I are going to try and go to church this Sunday...We can sit in the back and away from children because school has started...During greeting time I will wave...but I want to be there during my good weekends...God has opened my heart to so many wonderful blessings with this cancer. Yes I do have my moments with Russ about this whole cancer stuff...I put all the papers up...I am not going to any of the free stuff... I want to enjoy the moments that I feel good being with loved ones and spending quiet times with God... It is such a wonderful wonderful feeling..

This morning I surprised the heck out of Dan my eldest who has been having a hard time because he wants to help so much and has no car...needs rides and ect...Yes there is the bus system and he does take it...but his pennies are very short..So I called him and asked if he needed a ride...He kepted asking me if I was okay. I needed to go to the post office to mail some bills...so he said yes..Well I brought him a bunch of left overs for him to eat...made stew the other night and he has several meals with that... plus a bunch of other things...He was so thankful...

All I know is getting out and driving today was fantastic...Hadn't driven in such a long time and I am the driver in our family and I have had to let that go...Lots of things I have had control over the past 25 years of our marriage and let me tell you it is not easy at all...

I sat in the sun this morning and it felt great..I felt healing...Yes healing through the power of the big beautiful sun...

Russ told me we were going to go for drives and watch the colors of the trees...WOW!!! Newbie for him.. He isn't that type of person and and he wants to do things like that with me...I am so for it... I told him to pick pine cones to make presents..Yes I still have the creative side wanting to do things... That is good to..I even of thinking of getting a fishing license to go and sit on a lake and fish with the kids..How awesome is that.. Things we took for granite we want to do now and I know I am not going to die..but things we just look the other ways...These are the blessings I am talking about...

Oh did I tell you I still have my hair??? HA..would have thought..Bought hats and I have my hair...Not complaining one bit because wouldn't it be awesome if I kept it?? Dang I still have to shave my legs!!! I'll take it..

Now I can do with out the nausea!...No mouth sores yet... I am very happy about that.. Bones are aching from the shot that makes your bone marrow produce the white cells but I will take that to because that means this body is working...I am not saying chemo is a piece of cake...It isn't...lots of rest you have to do.. But it feels good to rest...

I have 3 more chemos to do..I though it was going to be 6 but it is a set of 4- 2 weeks apart and then I have to do 12 weeks of something else...and I have to go every week.. But the reactions are way different and not as bad as what I am getting now...The only thing that sucks is everytime I go I have to pay the co-pay of $50 each time..But ya know we cut back on the eating out and other stuff we can do it with discpline and with the Lord's help... and making pine cone things for presents for Christmas... I am so looking forward to this holiday season..

My kids have said no cooking for Thanksgiving for me...Now that I may like...Don't know what it is like yet... Sweet huh...

Have a great evening....May it be filled with many blessings...

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

A nice weekend...

I am doing pretty good... Very tired....
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My daughter came home from college and it was so nice to see her...She surprised me.. Didn't tell me she was leaving to come home...I had chemo that day and I think she wanted to get home to see me...

Friday was okay... Saturday was okay I was taking my nauseated meds.. They help alittle... salty things are better...But I wasn't expecting headaches....Those I don't like...

Sunday I woke feeling a bit more tired...

I have to back up to Saturday...i had to get the shot Saturday morning to get my white blood cells going again...It was raining and Russ and I decided to stop at HYVEE Drug to get a few things for the foot ball game... They have groceries in the store...So we picked up some Mexicans stuff and some burgers for the next day.. Kim helped with the Mexican fiesta to eat during the big game... It was nice watching foot ball with her again...Just a nice day...

Sunday, Tim and Jessie came over to mow and help pull out the veggie garden....That got done and while Russ and Tim and Jessie were doing that I made homemade Mac and Cheese and then Tim grilled burgers.... It was a relaxing time...And the big jobs got done...I watched them doing everything...That is so hard to get use to....

Monday - We had to say our good buys to Kim...Sniff sniff... Then I put some stew in the crock pot,,,Had some rolls rising... Russ and I just chilled for the afternoon...Dave and Dan wanted to see me so they came and finished up all the left overs from the Mexican and mac and cheese and burgers... It was great seeing them...

Today I am resting...I needed the break from cooking..Left over stew tonight....

The weather has been just great...Windows opened....

I have so many things I want to do but this body isn't wanting to do it so I decided to take today off and just rest my body...

I just wanted to update you that chemo isn't a piece of cake...I have my moments... I wish it could be as before...but it isn't and I have to trust in the Lord with the direction He wants me to go in....

Have a great day and may it be filled with many Blessings...

Friday, September 2, 2011

One down...

Good afternoon....

One down and not sure how many more to go...I have two different programs... All I know is I have the most wonderful nurses that are taking care of me..

AND I got a foot massage today while going through chemo..my FIRST one ever... Sue is her name who gave the foot massage...She is there just for that... Oh my goodness did it ever feel good..

Chemo isn't bad yet..I am feeling pretty good...Wait a couple of days and I may not be saying that!!

Last night I broke down and cried.. I needed to..Haven't done it for a while and I am learning to let it go...I prayed while crying and then this morning I started tearing and my hubby held me tight... I told him our lives will never be the same... A new season and not sure if I really like it or not but have to...Anyways I prayed again to ask God to carry me through out this whole chemo thing.. On our way to chemo this morning I saw the clouds and my camera just so happened to be in the car...I saw rays of sunshine peering through the open cloud...The goose bumps were going up and down..I call the goose bumps Hugs from the Lord... I knew he was shining down his rays of hope and love for me...This cloud followed me all the way to the parking garage...It was such a wonderful feeling that God was showing his love through the clouds....

Enjoy the pictures..Yahooooooo my daughter just came home...






Thursday, September 1, 2011

Thursday...

I am doing much better today as long as I don't take the pain meds...Boy oh boy do they make me sick to my stomach...Motrin does the trick...I am doing things today and feel real good...

I ordered my hats yesterday and today I have been making beaded bracelets and necklaces to match the hats..I am going to be in style...

Actually you feel better when you look nice.. So that is my goal...Looking nice and feeling good... :)

I have been having a nice time working on the beads with my cat sitting right next to me.....taking me longer with Sophia right next to me because she swats at that beads.. Or wants to stick her paws in the beads.. Actually all my animals are always right next to me...My german shep/ Husky does not know what is happening....Love my animals...

Tomorrow is the start of my chemo... Alittle nervous about what is going to happen.. I know God is in control and He will be my strenght... All of you and my family and friends are my strength to...I do so feel your prayers...What do people do with out prayer..without faith..I just can not picture that and I am so glad I can't..Yesterday I was having a melt down because I didn't feel good and started to cry and then I just sat and prayed and I felt this comfort come about and the thought came to my mind to get off the pain meds and take motrin....I love when that happens...I love the peace and comfort and good sound advice I get when praying..It works all the time...

Back to beading....Hope you all have a wonderful day and may it be filled with many blessings...

OH OH!!!! I only can only say this...My daughter graduates in December and then takes another semester to study for her CPA... Well she was offered a job for next June...I can't say with who...but she will have a job!!! AND she got a job for this semester with a department store...My daughter has worked so hard and I am so happy for her...This momma has one less thing to worry about... She will be living at home her first year working because she wants to pay off her student loans...

Better go my Son just came for a visit...