It's coming fast.....

Chemo nights I have a hard time sleeping...I am so wide awake and I think it is from the Benadryl they give me and I want to bounce off the walls...so I decided to write early...I have a ton of things I want to accomplish..

I was taking a shower last night and it hit me that in 3 weeks chemo will be over... Next chemo session they are going to make plans for the surgery...I wil be seeing the general surgeon in a couple of weeks and that is when my decision will be made about a single or double mastectomy... I keep going back and forth..I am in prayer about it...I know God will give me the peace I need when it comes to the decision. Right now I am going back and forth...Russ is so very supportive of whatever decision I make...He is a sweetie let me tell you...do you believe I have been going through chemo for 5 months...At the beginning of 5 months I thought it was forever and now everything is at my door step and I will be moving on with my life in 5 short weeks...well I do have to heal...I am starting to get nervous big time with the changes ahead of me...

I talked to the doctor about me being really tired...During the whole time I have been going through chemo I did not have the extreme fatique I am having now and the tingleness I have in my hands and feet...She did tell me it will get worse with the next 3 weeks...So I have to change my ways with my goal planning...I always make a list in what I want to accomplish each day...now I have to cut back and listen to my body and rest during the day...I am not use to that...But I do have to rest and let my body heal... I have to eat healthy to build up my strength..

Last night we had left over pork which I made into barbecue pork sandwhiches...I made homemade mac and cheese...Mac and cheese is comfort food but I also make it low fat and it is very good... Tonight we will have left over mac and cheese and burgers...

Friday night will be home made chicken pot pie....we are suppose to have a pretty big snow storm come in and chicken pot pie is one of Russ's favorite dinners... driving in the snow and then coming home he will love having the chicken pot pie....

Saturday will be red meat of some kind...

Sunday we will be going to church and then after church I will start roasting the 18 pound turkey I got from a friend that she didn't want...she won it...So we will be having lots of different healthy turkey dinners next week...I will give some to Dan to...All my other kids don't like turkey...I will freeze some so we can have it while I recoop from the surgery...

It's nice having the dinner menu planned out...Usually when I have it all planned out I never go with it because something always comes up...I don't see anything coming up as of right now..I am staying pretty close to home so I don't get sick...Russ is doing the errands for me...I go to the doctors and pick up Dan for work if he needs a ride which is most of the time...And I want to go to church...I know it is risky but I feel so connected there.

Things I want to do..it's a list but will do them as my body allows in the next couple of days...

1) I know we will have to shovel on friday...
2)Tidy up living room...
3)Clean my kitchen , mop floor and clean outside of the appliances..
4)Clean out the old food out of the refrig and see what I need
5)Go through my piles of scissors and see which one cuts the best...
6)Cut out my T-shirt night shirt pattern that has been sitting on my dining room table for the last week...seems like all my scissors are all in bad shape...tried sharpening a pair and totally screwed them up...I guess I can't sharpen scissors..
7) I have a small shelf above the stove...Want to paint it black...
8) Never finished the border wall paper behind the stove...Found the roll last weekend when I cleaned my sewing room...will finish the border..I think it's been 3 years..
9)Put sewing machine back in sewing room...I brought it out when Jessi needed some help with her machine... She brought it over so I could show here some things...She is a newbie with sewing... Her's has a lot of electronic stuff...After using hers I will stick to mine...Mine is not electronic and I will be taking very good care of mine...making sure it is oiled and all that...
10) I have my dining room table with two leaves in them...sits 12 but with the leafs in them it sure makes a good cutting table for my pattern...so will cut out pattern and then put table back down to normal size...
11) Clean the kittens room which is the exercise room..There play pen is in there where they stay...They are going to graduate out of the play pen into the room.. it has been a catch all room...so that will be clean and sorted and the play pen taken down and cleaned....big jog this one is...They do not stay in the room during the day...only when we are out and at night...They get into alot of trouble and I don't trust Holly just yet when I am not home...Holly is old and doens't have the patience with them...
12) Take some time to sew....
13)Relax and watch Project Runway tonight
14)Work on some hand projects while wathching TV at night...I have been addicted to the Word Game on Facebook...goodness it is fun but takes so much of my time...
15)Go to bed tired each night so I get a good nights sleep...I don't see this being a problem after what the doctor told me...
16) Change my sign above the sliding glass door...The one that is up now says Seasons Greeting...Of course it is the season of winter right???

This is my list of things to do...They will get done as my body allows me to do...

Ya'll have a great day and stay warm...May your day be filled with many Blessings....