It's another gorgeous morning...Chilly but sunny and beautiful... We are suppose to get in the high 50's... I can deal with this... We have had no snow so far...We have had some flurries...So I am enjoying this winter...However it is not good for the trees and for those who will be gardening this spring..Thursday we may have some snow...Today in the 50's and windchills they are talking below zero on Thursday...
I am trying to get on a schedule...I want to make Monday and Tuesday my deep cleaning day...Those two days I am feeling the best...The weekends I ache so bad from the chemo...I plan on Saturday and Sunday being my days of hand sewing and crocheting...Thursday and Fridays I want to be my sewing and craft days..
I am sorta frustrated...I know I got great news about my cancer...Knowing that I have no cancer elsewhere in my body and that the tumor is gone why am I going through 5 more chemo treatments...Why can't I go with the surgery... I will have a lot of questions tomorrow for my doctor...I am going to have a mastectomy so I am getting rid of the breast... So lets get rid of it...I guess what it is I want to move forward NOW not at the end of Feburary...I have no patience...But I have to remember the Lord provided these doctors for me and the Lord has squashed that tumor with the help of these doctors...Again here comes the control issues with me...And that is one thing I have learned through out this whole thing with cancer is that I need to stop controlling every aspect of my life...That the Lord is in control...And Patience is hard for me...I would love to stop the chemo now and go in for the surgery...I don't think that is God's plan tho... On Sunday our Pastor had his sermon on that..God's provisions and God's plan... So I need to stop trying to control again and see God's plan and provisions...
Tomorrow is my chemo day and today is suppose to be my cleaning day...Didn't get everything I wanted done yesterday...So I start with some of yesterday's list and then start todays...
Have a great day and may it be filled with many blessings...I am very Blessed to have you as my friend....
3 comments:
Hope all continues to go well for you. You can do it, go with the flow for your continued healing! Blessings and prayers!
Lisa, since the cancer is gone do they do the masectomy as a precaution for it to not return? Just wondered. I can feel your frustration but hang in there, you've come a LONG way:)
The chemo is still killing cells that can cause cancer, so yes, you need to continue on with the plan. Hang in there, you are doing great. jant
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